那种喜欢到不行的感觉

昨天，听人说 。。。。
那种喜欢到不行的感觉 。
突然感到好心酸 。

那种 喜欢到不行的那种感觉是什么？
就是可以为了她，不给自己留余地 。

不会再让别人 进入到自己的心里。
有种冲动 想好好保护她，甚至一生一世 。
当然，一生一世这种事情 谁也说不准，他们都知道。
但是，至少那一刻他是认真的 。 没有一点欺骗 。

这种感觉 , 对他来说，很熟悉却又很排撤。
很想再拥有这种感觉 却又害怕自己得不到想要的
最终 伤的 痛的 哭的
是他自己

那她呢？

阿婆

21/10/11
晚上9点多在Bagan Datoh，Perak朋友家接到老豆的电话说阿婆没气了。
空气顿时感觉沉重了。
‘快送她去医院Emergency啊！’
‘叫了ambulance’
‘还叫ambulance？！来不及了啦！’
‘阿婆已经没气一阵子了。’
盖了电话，走回屋里忍着与朋友家人说说笑笑。
过了几分钟。。电话再响起。。
‘阿婆没有了。。’ 9.20pm
我在屋外忍着那控制不了的眼泪夺眶而出。
擦擦眼泪走回屋里当着没一回事地谈天。
可是还是被她发现了。
回到房里，好想大哭一场的，可是又不想再她面前哭，只好忍通宵。

22/10/11
早上睡迟了，赶啊！巴士不等人啦！
还好赶得及。
搭着10个小时的巴士赶回家。又闷又累。
5点多就到了家，冲个凉就去了佛教会看婆婆。
大部分的家人都到齐了，除了大伯一家要从Melbourne赶机回马。

23/10/11
念诵大悲咒
守夜时梦到阿婆

24/10/11
治丧仪式
出殡至Kampung Dalam火化场，Tumpat
涌经
火化

在火化炉关上门之前，强忍的眼泪终于标了出来！
男人哭吧哭吧哭吧 不是罪
再强的人也有权利去疲惫
微笑背后若只剩心碎
做人何必撑得那么狼狈

25/10/11
骨核入灵塔仪式
遗产规划

27/10/11
头七

短短的百多天内就连续失去了人生中最疼爱我的两个人
那伤感 那心痛 那寂寞 那感觉
Huuuuuuu~

随喜赞叹，欢喜祝福

为了追求快乐，
而把快乐建筑在别人的痛苦上，
便会受到怨恨的困扰，
而无法摆脱怨恨。

-佛陀-

Trust

Trusted..
For the first time although it's just a small little thing..

You may not always TRUST the person you LOVE!
But you can always LOVE the person whom you TRUST!

精华 - 我们，还能再见吗？

遗憾，是戴着感伤面具的幸福；
虽然它不堪完美，却比赤裸的幸福更叫人刻骨铭心。

染发比烫发，更像恋爱。
同一种相处的方式，效果如何却因人而异。
每一次的约会、每一段感情，都叫人既期待，又怕受伤害！
只不过，有时候我伤害人、有时候我被别人伤害。

付出的感情并不容易控制分量，
得到的也不会和失去的成正比。
当我们爱得愈深、付出的愈多，
就愈不容许结果和预期之间有任何误差。

爱情需要很多的恰合才能造就；
但是，很多的恰合未必能造就爱情。

我的心，一直等着一个女孩。
每天，我都默默地对她喊着；欢迎光临！
会不会，有一个晚上，
她真的出现在我的面前？

爱情是个奇妙的东西，
当我觉得几乎完全没希望时，
唯一的选择就是坚持下去，认真守候。
当我发现它已经近在咫尺，就会想要得到更多。

所有因为爱所造成的伤害，
惟有用更大的爱才能弥补。

把小爱化为大爱；
就算不能被爱也会幸福。

能够永无止尽地被爱，是幸福；
能够不计得失地付出爱，是奢华的幸福。

在人与人的互动中，
只要其中一方有牺牲的感觉，彼此就会不快乐！

放下对别人的怨恨，可以减轻自己的负担。

关系愈亲密的人，
愈容易有情绪的对立。

真正掏空我的，
其实是这段旋转不到终点的感情。

这里是最接近爱情的地方，却也距离我要的爱情最远。
会不会缘分的开始与结束，都在同一个地点？

Exciting September

I'm so excited today as i bought number of cheap tickets for traveling after finish my degree study..

Vacation A: Laos Backpack [Alone]
KUL - VTE 10 July 2012
VTE - KUL 17 July 2012
KUL - KBR 18 July 2012

Luang Prabang

Vang Vieng

Vacation B: Cambodia + Thailand [7 Pax Group]
KBR - KUL 08 August 2012
KUL - PNH 09 August 2012
Expected return to Malaysia on 21 August 2012 by railway from Bangkok.

Angkor Wat

Tonle Sap Lake

Wat Arun

Floating Market

Ayutthaya Kingdom

p/s: Money also Every Ringgit Can FLY..

"Discharged"

Today evening went to Neuro ICU for clerk cases..
There's 1 particular case which had my attention and feel..

The male patient is diagnosed with right middle cerebral artery (MCA) territory infarct + unconfirmed low grade glioma with high urea & creatinine.

The moment we checked on his GCS was 15 with orally intake written in ICU chart.. Then our supervised dietitian told us that GCS was only 2T.. The staff nurses are helping him with putting his cloth in.. Three blur blur trainees wonder why?

We asked.. Our supervised dietitian told us that the patient was going to discharge.. With inverted comma.. We got blurred.. I think i know the hidden meaning.. That kind of familiar feeling i had last time.. Two of my friends were still wondering..

Then the dietitian showed us the doctor note in the medical folder with the remark of DIL (Danger In Life).. "Patient with this remark seldom will have positive outcome.. But we still plan feeding for them.. Who know? Maybe they can recover one day." Said the supervised dietitian..

I SUPER LIKE her words & attitude loz! 

After chit chat with the staff nurse, we knew that the patient requested to wear cloth as he is recovering well able to take food orally.. And so suddenly he went coma with the GCS dropped to 2T only.. The nurses were helping to cloth on as this may can be his last word.. The GCS improved to 3T when we leaving..

Pray for you man!

He reminded me of my late grandpa..
I visited him the night before he passed away..

He asked me to feed him with chicken essential as he also having problem with feeding.. But still able to tolerate low concentration fluid.. I looked at him.. He still able to talk softly with me.. Kind of recovering well.. When i'm going to left, he keep his eyes on me.. I had a kind of weird feeling that time.. Like he don't want me to left or something to say to me.. But i didn't turned back as my dad rushed me over.. Haizzz.. I should stay that time!
Next day morning, he passed away after seeing my uncle who fly all the way back from Melbourne.. Maybe this is what people called ‘回光返照’..  

Life is so short..

You won't know when it end..

Appreciated when you are still breathing! 

爱的OS

爱情，从来不是明知不可为而为之。
这点道理，是我受过很多伤、流过很多泪，才有的体会。
我曾经为爱付出很多努力，以为真诚可以感动天。

后来，我发现我错得很离谱。
爱情，就是这么回事吧！
先说爱的人，总是先输一半。